MY dad Past away 3.12.2010

 

My father passed away of cancer on December 3 2010. He was diagnosed with gastric cancer on May 2010. Got that? every month he need go chemo.My father was 67 years old. Passed away almost 2  month his birthday at 10 Feb

equivalent to a day of my birthday is February 11.His death at around 5.30pm. Before he went, when I was at work and get a call from the sister who says father can not save. We are required to go to hospital for the last time to see dad. I began to feel afraid. I could see my father in a small go public eye and hand move as I wanted to convey something. Sadly this looks like my father,operation unsuccessful .I still can't believe what has happened. Like everyone else I would not have thought that someone close to me would ever pass away with cancer. I still have not grasped what has happened even though time has passed and don't know when I will realize what has occured. Everything happened so fast, I remember when my father was first diagnosed after some stomach pains he was having. at first, I tried to ignore what happened and give good reasons why something like this would happen....such as it was God's will and his plan, which I still believe, but I didn't want to grieve my Father's death...If I was to grieve I would have to deal with the fact that my Father truly died and I couldn't accept that...I still don't fully accept because I keep living my life as if nothing occured. At night I realize what has happened, but only for a short while and then I go on thinking everything will be like they were one day.Old Man? He was and is my father and it hurts when people say he was old like i should not feel the way i feel. My father had cancer of his stomach stage 4.

I lost a good heart, always helping people, always giving advice to us, always keeping me and the most he was caring. Especially the oldest grandchild. where only the father will accompany her grandson to go every night and sleep with the father .. From my little until I mature, my father is very dear to me because I am the smallest child in the family. Dad also loved brother of decentralization in the morning before the brothers went to work, my father would prepare breakfast and lunch foods to a brother. Complete with bag into the car's brother.See how much my father love us.

This is the reason why i am writing at this moment. Telling you out there day by day with dates. God had a plan. My father went for his sonogram on December 3 2010. Please do not get me wrong. Prevention is best. If there is a chance go for it fight! But when there is nothing that can be done just accept things the way God decided. Respet your love one wishes. Regardless of the situation spirituality always help. IT IS NOT EASY TO LET YOUR LOVED ONE GO! I am grieving my father, it hurts so much but at least he is not suffering. God had Mercy! Listening or reading about other people'story i can see that even touhg it look like my father had cancer all around his abdominal cavity, he did not suffer a lot compare to other having less compromised cancer. TO GOD BE THE GLORY! To all the people out there that are going through this painfull time my prayers and concerns are with you. You are not alone. God is with you. He will give the strengh, the courage and th patience. He will not give more that you can not endure. Pray! Pray!

 My last picture with my My lover Father ~!!

♥ im LOVE see Cake Design ♥

Cake? wow I love to see the cake with a variety of design .. Spend the time to serve cake and cupcake website. variety of collections and the variety of different types of cake shops and different people. They are really great and makes me interested to learn. My engagement date uncertain, but my spirit in preparation for that happy day, I want variation and moderation. First inventory of engagement rings have been purchased. In the sick father, the engagement may be delayed. I am not saddened by it, because I know the last surgery my father, my father would be okay and healthy. Healthy father, then he can see my engagement with the happy ^ ^ I pray for my father woke up from a coma .. I know my father wanted to see my betrothed or married. I can not grieve in a situation like this. Time passes quickly, twinkle twinkle eye rolling engagement as well ..
I want an engagement cake at a small cake and a cupcake is cute and fit the theme of bright red and white, which means love and passion.

DAD Fighting with Cancer

Story of My Father Fighting Against Cancer intestinal

Below is a story about my father who got cancer in this year. It was an unforgettable experience of me and my family. I wish that our story could provide an alternative for people who have cancer. Hope you can go through the story in patient ......

My father has a life style that likes most people in cities: high pressure, smoking, staying late, not enough exercise, meal of large portion of meat but less vegetable, not adequate drinking of water, fast food lover ... Even worse, he is resistant of health products. He only sees a registered doctor when he does not fell well. I believe that everyone can see the potential danger inside my father's body!

My father's health condition was getting worse and worse when returning to home. Due to the severe pain, he could not go to sleep. He also lose his appetite, could not eat anything. He had been losing weight daily. His face was turning to dark gray color and getting darker and darker. It meant that his body cells were lack of oxygen. Even worse, he could barely walk anymore. His body was crushing.

If there was no improvement in his health, my father could not be scheduled of surgical operation. Not even talking about radiation or electric treatment. I could not accept this. At that time, my biggest wishes for my father were less pain and weight regaining so the surgical operation could be performed.

Erratic mood father. is sometimes ok, sometimes angry and upset. Mother is a victim of the release of anger, as well as our brothers and sisters, especially the eldest sister. Perhaps the emotional pain he caused this. non-scheduled drugs consumed. sometimes up to 2 lines per day penadol aktifast even told me to buy it again. family have been advised not to act as such, but he can not resist desire to take medicine even after the pain began to scold us and say the verse is not pleasing.

My Question? He Has Much Time Left ? how long my dad want enduring the pain? After that i will lose my Lovely Father 4ever .I could not resist this sadness. 
I do not want to lose him .. no dad to protect us, no dad cook for us, no dad to help us , even whatever no dad I will feel alone..

Cancer

Cancer is strong,

But it cannot break my dads strength.

He fights and fights till he gets to weak.

He is a bear fighting to stay alive.

Cancer is not hope.

Hope is what my dad had in the hospital,

as he sits there scared as a mouse,

waiting for the news.

Cancer is not faith.

Faith is my dad believing in God during

his bumpy road of life.

Cancer is not love.

Love is me,

my family,

and lots of friends

standing by my dads side.

Cancer cannot crush,

burn,

or destroy

any of these things.

most importantly it cannot crush dreams.

dreams are what keep my dad moving today.