Thursday 16 December 2010

Miss You ♥

How do I hold my tears. im so miss u dad. Now no one can cook like my father. Once when I was sick, my father would cook chicken soup for me but now no one will cook chicken soup for me .. I really miss my father cooking. I was very ill father lost a loved one ... 


3 weeks have passed
I’ll never forget the day
Someone rang to tell me
That you’d gone away

The hurt is the same
Like an open wound
There are days
I don’t utter a sound

Some days the pain is stronger
It makes me sick and weak
I can’t stand this much longer
I just sit here and weep

I’ve shut my private door
And let no one in
Locking myself in a box
They try, but I won’t give in

You were like a rock
Strong, faithful and true
What worth has my life
Now I don’t have you

I was your first born
Daddy’s little girl
I took my own path
But was still part of your world

I was not the best
Guilty of neglect
But you know daddy dearest
I had so much respect

I always loved you
My dad, my star
Now my pain is
To worship you from afar

I love you now
As I did back then
I just hope... one day
I will see you again

I am so proud of you
Brave and strong to the end
Now when asked “how are you?”
There is no need to pretend

We all love and miss you so much, sleep well
and take care of all who went before you


Saturday 11 December 2010

พ่อรัก

ไม่สะดวกในการสำลัก การสูญเสียคนที่รักไม่ใช่เรื่องง่ายสำหรับผมที่จะลืม แม้ว่าผมพฤติกรรมตามปกติ แต่ก็ไม่ได้หมายความว่าฉันไม่เสียใจ หัวใจของฉันถูกหัก แต่ฉันถือมันทั้งหมดเป็นเพราะแม่และครอบครัว คือเขาก็ปล่อยให้ไป ไม่คิดว่าฉันไม่เศร้าจะสูญเสียเขา เด็กจะหลั่งน้ำตาเพื่อพ่อที่รักของเธอตั้งแต่วัยเด็กได้รับการผ่อนคลายเหมือนเด็กแม้จะมี 21 ปีเก่าของฉัน ครอบครัวของฉันไม่แสดงความโศกเศร้าเพราะเรารู้ว่าเขาจะไม่เก่าในโลกเราพร้อมกับมัน เต็มใจใจแทนคณะกรรมการ ฉันไม่สามารถชำระคืนพ่อของฉันเขามีหายไปสำหรับ nya.saya สาวน้องสาวและพี่ชายรักเธอเสมอ ไปในความสงบ, O พ่อ

Sunday 5 December 2010

MY dad Past away 3.12.2010





My father passed away of cancer on December 3 2010. He was diagnosed with gastric cancer on May 2010. Got that? every month he need go chemo.My father was 67 years old. Passed away almost 2  month his birthday at 10 Feb
equivalent to a day of my birthday is February 11.His death at around 5.30pm. Before he went, when I was at work and get a call from the sister who says father can not save. We are required to go to hospital for the last time to see dad. I began to feel afraid. I could see my father in a small go public eye and hand move as I wanted to convey something. Sadly this looks like my father,operation unsuccessful .I still can't believe what has happened. Like everyone else I would not have thought that someone close to me would ever pass away with cancer. I still have not grasped what has happened even though time has passed and don't know when I will realize what has occured. Everything happened so fast, I remember when my father was first diagnosed after some stomach pains he was having. at first, I tried to ignore what happened and give good reasons why something like this would happen....such as it was God's will and his plan, which I still believe, but I didn't want to grieve my Father's death...If I was to grieve I would have to deal with the fact that my Father truly died and I couldn't accept that...I still don't fully accept because I keep living my life as if nothing occured. At night I realize what has happened, but only for a short while and then I go on thinking everything will be like they were one day.Old Man? He was and is my father and it hurts when people say he was old like i should not feel the way i feel. My father had cancer of his stomach stage 4.
I lost a good heart, always helping people, always giving advice to us, always keeping me and the most he was caring. Especially the oldest grandchild. where only the father will accompany her grandson to go every night and sleep with the father .. From my little until I mature, my father is very dear to me because I am the smallest child in the family. Dad also loved brother of decentralization in the morning before the brothers went to work, my father would prepare breakfast and lunch foods to a brother. Complete with bag into the car's brother.See how much my father love us.
This is the reason why i am writing at this moment. Telling you out there day by day with dates. God had a plan. My father went for his sonogram on December 3 2010. Please do not get me wrong. Prevention is best. If there is a chance go for it fight! But when there is nothing that can be done just accept things the way God decided. Respet your love one wishes. Regardless of the situation spirituality always help. IT IS NOT EASY TO LET YOUR LOVED ONE GO! I am grieving my father, it hurts so much but at least he is not suffering. God had Mercy! Listening or reading about other people'story i can see that even touhg it look like my father had cancer all around his abdominal cavity, he did not suffer a lot compare to other having less compromised cancer. TO GOD BE THE GLORY! To all the people out there that are going through this painfull time my prayers and concerns are with you. You are not alone. God is with you. He will give the strengh, the courage and th patience. He will not give more that you can not endure. Pray! Pray!
 My last picture with my My lover Father ~!!