Tuesday 20 April 2010

Im Want BE Strong GIRL but ....


Sometimes the pain's too strong to bare...and life gets so hard you just don't care. You feel so alone you just sit and cry...every second you wish you could die. Then you start thinking who would care...if one day they woke up & you weren't there.
Know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside.
I could go on with my day and act like everything is okay. But as my life goes on it hurts more in every way.
I've been weak and I've been strong. I've been thru the fire and I've been thru the storm. Try to do right and I know I do wrong. Just be happy for me when my life is gone. Cause with no more hurt and no more tears, there will be no more pain and no more fears.  No more people in my face that are not sincere. So smile for me when I'm no longer here.

Do you know what it's like to be me? Go through something not everyone can see? Do you know what it's like to walk in my shoes? Please stop judging me simply cause I'm not you...
Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody. You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy but at the same time you don't know exactly what is wrong either?

I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of crying. I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.
I'm going to smile...and make you think I'm happy...I'm going to laugh...so you don't see me cry...and even if it kills...I'm going to smile.
You'll just never know... so many emotions I choose not to show..

A strong girl keeps her stuff in line & with tears running she still manages to spit the simple words ‘I'm Fine’ !!!

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